Spoiler alert: I am completely going to blame this mom-fail on my cross-country move. I have found two things to be the hardest during this whole moving process:
- Keeping appointments straight (and until now somehow managing not to forget a single one for my kids or myself.)
- Adjusting to being what I am going to call a stay-at-home mom with a part-time job. Basically, we have this sweet new schedule that I completely relish – I get to spend so much more time with the kids than I ever did before but at the same time I am working 15-20 hours a week (mostly in the early mornings or at night when they are in bed.)
Yesterday I was thrilled with myself because it felt like things were smoothing out and falling into place for me and my little family. I was up early and finished work just as the rest of my house was waking up. The boys and I had a relaxed morning full of playing and fun and video-chatting with Gummy (Grandma, for those of you not in the know.) Then it was off to Iancu’s first swimming lesson and the kiddie pool for Sandu.
I even had dinner prepped and ready to go in the oven as soon as we got home around 6.
Basically, yesterday was a great day. I felt like I was winning at life.
Then at 5AM this morning I sat bolt upright in bed because at that moment I realized that I completely missed the boy’s first parent/teacher conference at their preschool yesterday.
Big. Fat. Mom. Fail.
I am not going to lie…right now I am waffling between rationalization and being wracked with guilt. On one hand, I realize that my plate is full with all new things. On the other hand, I have complete and total mom-guilt…you know those mom-feelings you get when you think “oh no, this is terrible, I’ve just ruined their entire school career. They will think I don’t care. Or, their teachers will think I don’t care!”
Of course, the ticker tape of negative thoughts going through my mind right now is filled with complete untruths. I do care about their school and hearing about their progress and learning how I can help them. In fact, I’ve already heard back from their teacher saying it’s fine, happens all the time and I can reschedule – not a big deal.
Luckily they are only in preschool and it’s not like I missed some major meeting about elementary or high school but I still feel pretty lousy.
Mostly this has taught me a big lesson – when I feel like I am winning at life I should stop and check my calendar to make sure I haven’t missed anything. 🙂