Mom Fail #678,902

Fail

Spoiler alert:  I am completely going to blame this mom-fail on my cross-country move.  I have found two things to be the hardest during this whole moving process:

  1.  Keeping appointments straight (and until now somehow managing not to forget a single one for my kids or myself.)
  2. Adjusting to being what I am going to call a stay-at-home mom with a part-time job.  Basically, we have this sweet new schedule that I completely relish – I get to spend so much more time with the kids than I ever did before but at the same time I am working 15-20 hours a week (mostly in the early mornings or at night when they are in bed.)

Yesterday I was thrilled with myself because it felt like things were smoothing out and falling into place for me and my little family.  I was up early and finished work just as the rest of my house was waking up.  The boys and I had a relaxed morning full of playing and fun and video-chatting with Gummy (Grandma, for those of you not in the know.)  Then it was off to Iancu’s first swimming lesson and the kiddie pool for Sandu.

I even had dinner prepped and ready to go in the oven as soon as we got home around 6.

Basically, yesterday was a great day.  I felt like I was winning at life.

Then at 5AM this morning I sat bolt upright in bed because at that moment I realized that I completely missed the boy’s first parent/teacher conference at their preschool yesterday.

Big.  Fat.  Mom.  Fail.

I am not going to lie…right now I am waffling between rationalization and being wracked with guilt.  On one hand, I realize that my plate is full with all new things.  On the other hand, I have complete and total mom-guilt…you know those mom-feelings you get when you think “oh no, this is terrible, I’ve just ruined their entire school career.  They will think I don’t care.  Or, their teachers will think I don’t care!”

Of course, the ticker tape of negative thoughts going through my mind right now is filled with complete untruths.  I do care about their school and hearing about their progress and learning how I can help them.  In fact, I’ve already heard back from their teacher saying it’s fine, happens all the time and I can reschedule – not a big deal.

Luckily they are only in preschool and it’s not like I missed some major meeting about elementary or high school but I still feel pretty lousy.

Mostly this has taught me a big lesson – when I feel like I am winning at life I should stop and check my calendar to make sure I haven’t missed anything. 🙂

 

 

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